Saturday, August 29, 2009

The conundrum called life

Here is a small story I wrote..

Driving down the freeway in my new BMW convertible, I was thinking about the case I had just won. It was a hard fought case for a cosmetics firm – the verdict allowed them to continue testing beauty products on animals. As I passed their spanking new animal testing lab, I wondered what was happening there at that moment.

The BMW had not been part of the fee…it had been a show of gratitude; an acknowledgement of my skill.

My reverie was rudely broken..by the time I saw it, it was too late. It came in at over a 100 miles and crashed into my windscreen; the glass gave way and it stuck, taken prisoner by speed and shattered glass. I slammed my brakes, pulled over and came out fuming.

Over the roar of the freeway, I thought I heard a whimper. I went closer and saw it struggle. It was mangled and bloodied by the impact. Stroking it gently, I poured out some water on my palm. With extreme effort, it licked my hand and wagged its tail – a show of gratitude; an acknowledgement of my small act of compassion. The effort took its life.

What happened next was a frenzy. A flat-bed truck pulled over and a couple got out. They wept for precious; that had been its name. They said the dog had a large heart and believed in giving.

As I sat there by the freeway, it hit me. Over the roar of the freeway, I could hear the lab groan – under the weight of life rendered meaningless.

My BMW did not look beautiful anymore.

Until She Sings

Here is a poem on nature by me..

Until she sings

Discordant notes…sweet echoes
Poetry without…
Words
Her orchestra
playing the symphony of life

Interrupted.

by the din of progress
Growing into a menacing growl,
as a tree falls
She echoes with silence
The silence of death
paying blood tributes to the crown jewel of creation

The heavens will weep
until she sings

Hypocrite

I sat up wide awake at 2am this morning thinking...

I throw my full effort into pretty much everything I do . But I rarely connect at an emotional level to anything I do - so, I can see that I'm not really involved. So, any act I have done seems to be unconnected to me. So, when I question myself on why I did what I did, I don't have an answer.

I am too conditioned into living. I am just not being true to myself.

I'm 35 and I think I'm a huge hypocrite.